28 + 10

28 days passed by since I left here.
For once, it's strange to say but I felt that love was lost. not even a trace was left.
And so, began the 28 days, when life had never been so depressed and turbulent.
from the peak I dropped straight into the hole, it happened too fast I can barely see and comprehend anything. I just knew I'm freefalling to a place called nowhere, freefalling to the place where I'm somehow fated to be there.
You might still think that I'm still the same throughout the days, but the truth is I'm falling apart.
Behind those laughters and lame jokes, a thousand scars and wounds were brimming red across my heart, a million pieces of memories sticking through my wall. I smiled, at least I tried to, but it's twisted and forced. It couldn't hide the fury and breaking down that's going on inside me.
For once, it's so broken and so bleak that I almost fell into the abyss like so many others. Broken, as I couldn't seek salvation; bleak, as I couldn't see the light. Cloudy and stormy days raged inside me like there's no ending to it.
And so, the 28 days dragged on, attempting to kill everything.

And then, you came into my life. At the exact right time.
You've always been there for all this while, but my cravings and longings had blinded and misted my sight, and all I saw was just my plain own twisted perception, I couldn't see you.
But I'm glad you did come. Just like the way thing was, it's only different because you pulled out that twist in me, and so once again I can see hope. The sun had never been so bright.

Thanks so much <3  I'm really indebt to you. Without you, I can't imagine where this will lead me to.
you stopped my descend into darkness and pulled me back to the surface of the water, and as I gasped and coughed, I started to realize that the sky, why had I never been able to notice that it's so beatiful? Love's beautiful.....


And so my story continues.



Actually, it's 38 days. the days I didn't come this place.
But for the latter 10 days, it's been rainbow and sunshine. I'm still who I was, it's just that something about me was different, not the same anymore from the 29th day. It's the beginning of the end, and whether it's a horrible and murky end or one basked in the glory of love, it's up to the sequel of my story. And about how I'm gonna continue this story, I'll find out myself.