After the storm

It's been awhile....again =.= the truth is I actually don't feel like writing anything here, but alright now Im coming home. Home is always different, no matter how you crave and long for the glamour and grace out there. Home is the warmest place on earth, for me =) some may want to voice their thoughts, but mostly you find peace at home.

Ok enough of the BS... but how am I gonna start this? It's been so long and the time frame passed by quite strangely these days and of course, my memory as usual ditched me of most of the things most of the time, so it's no surprise I can't keep track of everything. Some of those will be dropped somewhere in my past :( Okayyss, life these days had those usual ups and downs and at least Im feeling better from the previous period and slowly recovering.... I think. There's no point looking back except to bask in the touching feelings of nice memories again, so everybody moves on. Erm.... my results dropped....quite a bit. 20. Sounds nice and cool, right? right in the middle. fair and square. Actually my mum threatened to cut off my internet connection. But I had promised to fare better next time. I can do it :) LOL

The homeworks had been increasing like never before, but we still got to deal with it. Haizs, I don't like form 4 homeworks....I had really no idea how I can did it the years before. I had lost it. Some of it. I think I'll find another way somehow. God Bless me >< as to other things....well, I don't think there's anything to say. Days went by typically and the weather was real hot. I mean, super ultra  HOT == walking in the sun for 2 minutes you'll look like you just come up from a swimming pool. Literally. 

Something happened after the time Im healed, well partly healed I think. It's something indescribable, a kind of feeling which will kinda makes you cry. From the way she told me, this is the picture in my mind. Strangely, I cant feel any strong and intense emotions.... had I also lost this? NOoooooo way, I gonna find it back. Maybe It's the way I deal things, maybe it's the fact that my heart cant keep up with the gap growing into a massive hole over the years.... maybe it's a tad too far?  

All I can hope for is faith and trust, which I believe will never fail us :) Fingers crossed  X <3