COMATOSE

Sorry but maybe I can't walk with all of you til the end together.
There's some things I need to settle before I can have my smiles again.

So, sorry if I had annoyed you all these while and thanks so much if you have done something to cheer me up.

Even though it's a small thing.
But I don't have time to enjoy the happiness now.
It won't be soon before long....Let me sink into Oblivion for a while.

Maybe I'll be better off that way, and maybe it'll be better for everybody around me.

Hiatus

It's been 4 months already since i last came here. Even now I stil don't really understand what happen all these days and stil is awestruck by how tremendously things have changed. So many things happened during this period....and I'm not gonna say much here because I myself am well aware that I haven't got the right and time to say anything yet. Everything is still in the works, and I'm seriously running out of time. I'm guilt-driven and yet don't know how to appreciate everything precious around me, causing destruction everywhere I went. Now I do really understand why people always wish time could turn back....but well, please give me strength to face the reality.
I've broken promises, failed myself and let everybody down. Let's stop for now, let me come here when the time is right again. Please bless me again and give me strength to redeem myself again....for the last time. I haven't got over myself afterall...thanks for everyone that's still by my side even for now.

And it seems like I had lost my past, well, some part of it actually....and things do really get messy sometimes, and I couldn't recall precious moments anymore. Well, hope things would turn around. There's always rainbow beyond the sky....can I reach for it, again?