Fade [Endless Galaxy Remix]

Everything's been in a rush

as the scense and images blurred by 

and unconsciously me starting to let loose everything

in front of me is a world too dark yet too seductive

A cup of latte oozing steam and frangance

the afternoon sky seems oddly familiar yet too faraway

yes, everything's been faraway... on an unknown island

I stare

hands locked together

thoughts mixed and soul ricocheting off my frame

words unable to describe

mind too complicated to decipher

as I look upon this vast endless sky

and this laid-back cozy town

I pray and wish and hope

to this sky that knows me not.

[Embraced by this sky, it hurts even more]

201

This is my 201th post.

Almost a year since I started blogging,

so much has been happening

so much has been sealed in memories

and so much has been forgotten.

So much has changed

I've gotta admit that....

Everything from my eyes to my toes.

It's changed.

Sigh, cant believe I'd grown old so rapidly.

About this life I'm in

it's not like I really hate it

but something inside me is still hollow and empty

despite the flair and contentment I had been pursuing all along

Too much has been achieved, yet even more has yet to be achieved.

I seek pleasure in my achievement, and yet

how can I define my achievement? just how, even I'm lost.

Anyway, Life kills us all, no matter how or where or when.

That very special day, 

I had this peculiar yet hypocritical dream.

I thought you and me had been reunited, the cracks on our heart

no where to be seen. I cant tell how happy and joyous I was back then.

It's so nostalgic..... so far away now.

after realizing it's just another dream... my world almost crumble.

After so many months, is it because of my pride that I cant give in?

Yet, what am I giving in to? there's no clear line between right or wrong in this matter

I just knew that very day you sms me,

Nothing can be found back again.Never.....

I just wished time could flow back... but I have to face reality, too...

Those that had been forgotten,

I cant do anything but mopped 

that sense of incontentment and guilty heart,

how I wish I could be back to square one again with you...

not like now, my heart aching exaggeratingly, although nothing show on the surface

although everything would be different, I just wish....

Where is my endless sky?

I really hate those friggin' brats 

especially those who like to stain other people's dignity

and just think that they're the best and the mighty

get lost man, nobody needs your arrogance here.

all we need is a serene and peaceful atmosphere where we can smile

not with you destroying the scene.Amigos~

Lastly, my ever changing routine fashion

with no consistent pace and steps

Im searching for my ideal style.... still in the process.

Im getting rid of this style of life,

which brought so much in life... whether sad, jubilant or lonely

I can still go on with a renewed heart and mind,

with strengthened resolve and ambition,

I wont let loose my dream.

this Dazzling Twilight Dream.

Your smile is so sweet, 

cant pull myself away from intoxication.....

Place Of Arrival [Achievement Of Flawless Unity]

Nothing will be left

recurring dreams causing mass concussion

in the midst of fantasies

where I can barely grasy any specks of reality

my very conscience is fighting for liberty

with the cataclysms pressing in for dignity

But 

it's just as such

Nothing will be left

as I watch mournfully

with undescribable heart and thoughts

sadism, my only feeling

the end of this Dazzling Twilight Dream.

Well, 

this place is idling and deserted

day by day

as I finally have came to light

the truth and final revelations

at that place of arrival.

Yes, my time is not far,

that bridge needed to link my soul

to the place of arrival

I just need one feeling of unity 

to achieve it.

Be it the achievement of Hard Work

Be it the pinnacle of wisdom

Be it the Achievement of Flawless Unity.

It's all, not far away

I can see it again, in my hands.

Let God beshine on me,

I will arrive there and then

Everything won't be the same.

Again.

When something reaches its boiling point 

maybe it's just too late.

But I hope here, in my cosy home where I belong

things can be turned....

because it's not just simply heartborken and sad and down and empty

to endure this..... although I tried my best to cover it up

my poker face. It sucks, right?

Hope everything ..... will be fine.

God BLess Us.

Something Bout Love [David Archleta]

Every night it’s all the same
You’re frozen by the phone
You wait, something’s changed
You blame yourself every day
You’d do it again
Every night

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

When you were young
Scared of the night
Waiting for love to come along
And make it right
Your day will come, the past is gone
So take your time
And live and let live

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

Don’t fight
Don’t hide
Those stars in your eyes (in your eyes)
Let em’ shine tonight
Let em’ shine tonight

Hang on
Hang in
For the ride of your life
It’s gonna be alright
Hold on tight

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees (to your knees)
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

Whoa oh oh oh..
Set’s you free
There’s something bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain

Fallen Dazzling Twilight Dream [ Reminiscing Blues Remix]

has been isolating this blog lately....

my passion and the substance within the soul,

bits by bits it's becoming hollow,

what happened to my indulgence in this self-actualization?

what happened to the twilight of senses that yet has not been able to settle, even though

under multitudinous and trumpeting circumstances?

and it's because of these unfolding chains of gruesome events

that makes me wonder where did the once bewitched and bewildered

heart had vanished, the once soulful medium that's still responding to the moment of truth,

leaving me breathless, awed and enraptured,

until the moment the flames of emotion well-being gone out....

and since then, that gap gradually expanding and melting up my very existence,

leaveing behind a hole too big to fill, too deep to even see through, and too fearsome to even touch 

I say,

this lifelong endeavor is my turing point of salvation,

my atonement for the sins commited since long, 

blazed by the shifting of eras and amplified by the devastating atmosphere,

and my duty to redeem myself has yet to be accomplished...

till the dawn of apocalypse will I start to yell out with sheer bliss,

as if the very sense of contentment, which I sought and sought,

no where to be found ....... yet It's just within the reach of fingertips

has been back to where it's originally positioned.

All that is needed is your thoughts and feelings combined together,

for a supernova- scale collision that overthrows and obliterate everything,

for the true and final answer to show itself.

As all this comes down to everything or nothing,

the true answer to my question has not been able for me to comprehend

at least not at this stage where inner- conflicts and devils loom,

but last but not least,

I pledge for a true bond to be bind, connected and locked,

as I wonder,

what has happened to my Dazzling Twilight Dream?

getting and getting more irritated by your attitude
even though we look like we're hardcore friends and that,
but deep inside I don't know what you think
but I'm telling you this:
I won't see you as a true friend
and will never always unless you change your attitude.
In my defination of "friend",
I think you got it all wrong.
Just shut up and look after yourself will you?
don't always go around pei si or do harmful things to your friends
especially your words
totally stupid ..... so watch out for youself bah.
Because I'm not the only one feeling like this.
Maybe in the first place,
you never see us as a true friend....
well, if that's what you want, you 'll get that.
I will pretend to be your "friend" and play along with you though
and let me see what you can do.
you jerk.

Striving For ......?

Piano exam ...... er 

duh. haha.

certainly not having a good time there

overall maybe not so bad but in my perspective,

It sucks.

haiz.

Anyway, am glad it's finally over

whatever the result is, I promised myself 

I wont regret. because this was the outcome over these months.

of course, I'm not that kind that practises often....

so I cant and wont blame anybody~~ 

Looking forward to the future is my task now.

Now one thing is down, I should go for the school exams ....

If I dont wanna start flipping my books now,

I can foresee a pretty ugly .........er.... Finale.

haha.

Ciaosss...