Things that shook when we were copying notes

today was so damn thrilling
because when it's about 6.20pm( I think)...........
my instincts told me that something big was coming
and BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!
and then we all realized that the whole building was shaking!!!!
Wow
At first I thought Khong Yik Fei was shaking my chair( sit behind me)
so did Gao Jun and Zhu Yi
but we noticed a slight tremor and we were all exuberant..................
And somewhere far people shouted and screamed ..........
and so we all went down to gather at the basketball court when the Emergency alarm rang
.....................News reported that there's a 7.7 scale magnitude earthquake in South Sumatra
We all talked about our famous last words and things that we wanna do before apocalypse for us
what hilarious antics.........haha
anyway today's a day full of surprises
It sure tingled my nerves.

Beginning Of Apocalypse

Ok.............
bought a new Nike Bag................damn cheap only Rm20
^^
like to buy cheap things.................
but that's enough for me
..............................................

Ok
I think it's time for studying.................cause had made a promise with my best buddies
wanna score this time
no let up.

Spiderman Is Me

Today is so zhadao
after band
when we thought we can rest
and OMG
that black gate's locked..........(our band room is on the 2nd floor)
and we all fluttered around.......to wait for the responsible guard to open that damn gate
never did we thought that the guard's only return on 6pm
it's around 5pm and we're all os anxious
then came my brilliant idea
when hoy yan confirm there's no other way............
I suggested we climb up from the end of perpustakaan corridor.....
and guess what?We found a ladder
and together with a scout,
I performed a stunning Spiderman act.............
after failed the first attempt
the used the ladder to climbed over
and opened the band room door, took out all our bags before climbing down
haha
It's so like a sohai
But we can go home after that
sadly TT Carmen and Hoy Yan and some others have to wait for that damn guard who holds the key..........
and put all those percussion instruments into the band room.
haizzzzzz
Great work and thanks!

The Little Children of Morganna

It is everywhere
It is ubiquitous and spreading without limits
The rise of Cubia
As said as the shadow of all Epitaphs
Rise to devour The World
Left behind countless peril and broken bonds

The knights of goddess Aura
Of Azure Kite
Of Azure Balmung
Of Azure Orca
Who entrust Empty Skies in The Chosen One
Who walk alongside goddess Aura to lighten the path
Of those Forbidden Route
To The Gateway of Utopia

Only The Chosen One
Who devour all Eight Epitaphs
Who is the ultimate key of Twilight
Can Bring down Cubia
with all feelings inside Himself
The Little Children Of Morganna

May there be Sheer Tranquility
May there be Bliss and Eternal Joy
May there be Happiness.

.......................................
feel like writing this down because of those inspiration
and everything's fine for now
For now only*
haiz
what happen to my path of Happiness?

Ok there's a mistake about the last post

the she HATE me..............
should change to " she HATES me"
gt -s............................
LOL

guess I'm wrong from the beginning...........

Heartbroken and becoming Heartless

Tonight's a whole mess for me............
I shouldn't online tonight.......

She said she HATE me............OMG
said just gutted
yeah you're right
This is the real big mess I left behind
Just because my own stupid instinct tell me to do so
I really shouldn't do that, you know
it's all because of me.

Seriously i think this will leave an imprint too strong
too magnificent
Goodbye.

Mentor

Glad to post this on
I realized that Jau Ni can be my mentor in English.......
She's fascinated by english usage
overwhelmed by dictionary
which normal people will avoid
haha
I'm so lucky

Think will seek her help regarding this year- end test
especially Paper 2................
Actually I have an aim
I don't wanna suck at english
Same to BM.LOL
These are those sucking subjects
make me flop

................
I so wanna be flawless!!!!!!!
damn it that I cant.

New Goal

Ok...........
nowadays there isn't anything I can talk about
I just doesn't feel like doing anything lately
maybe will start studying?
Seems impossible
anyway the reward I'll get when I 'm top 3 this year- end exam
is a notebook
laptop
....................
Ok
working my way through it
Now I have to gain it
It's all within my will and power

Something meaningful......................

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起” 。


男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男 孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么 喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

—— “对不起”的快乐 。



大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。



婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢 慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那 么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道 了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。


渐 渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市 买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说 话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。



女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。


男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我 始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么 让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为 你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起......

Today Kris Allen Releases First Single!!

Well, yeah
Kris Allen, the winner of the latest ( 8th ) American Idol
released new single"Live Like We're Dying" following up "No Boundaries"
check it out at his official website!!I'm quite sure you'll be wowed.

http://www.krisallenofficial.com/

In Memoriam

Today was an exhausting and tiring day
I admitted I'm a bit reluctant to head back Muar with my dad
It's so early man
8.30am.....................==

anyway after a 2++ hours journey..........
finally arrived
The way Muar's image was in my heart never changed
although there were some development.................
and sadly..........TT
my favourite Wanton Mee stall closed!!!!!!
So damn it............................
why those brothers who manage the stall had to go vacation this time??
when I'm back into your embrace???

but anyway found another satisfying stall
finally my taste buds were satisfied

after that went to our usual temple to pay respect to the Gods
and dad wants to get reassurance from God Himself
about some difficult and important decision to make
he wanted advices from Him
because it's a decision not only a promotion for him
it's the turning point of our entire family

Then we went to visit my deceased grandfather
it's been three years
and The imprint it left behind was getting better
but the fact that grandfather is the one who brought me up
that he's my savior will never changed
i can only remember those days
in the midst of dreams and illusions
sometimes tears will shed
sometimes not.

.............................
after visiting great- grandmother and some relatives
we decided to return home.
where it all began.............

Sorry This Is A Day Late ( Some shocking revelations)

well, the reason behind my delayed posting of this was because dad insisted we went back to hometown............................haiz
Let's get back to Sunday, my unbelievable day.............
After exercising we had dinner with my piano teacher
who wanted to reveal the ABRSM exam result
and which I don't really care to tell the truth...........................
but when she reavealed the result
ultimately I scored a Distinction!!!Wow

It's so unbelievable.................
so untrue
Because deep in my heart
I don't really deserve this...............
but on the other side.............
I'll just yelled and leaped
I'd made it!!
This gave me some room of my own to do some thinking.........
actually
I had to thank my teacher first
for her effective teaching I guess.................
and thank my dad and mum for supporting me............
and lastly thank myself for figuring out how things work for me
because I just knew there's something different about me
if compared to my surroundings I guess............
so I'd figured out my own principles of life.....
and thanks to those principles.............
I can survived almost everything.

So,
As a conclusion.........
The key to success is your passion
your commitment
and
your belief.

Edge

today
band was not satisfying for me
my personal condition should take the blame
the clarinet seemed like unwilling to cooperate
and huang yu's kind of angry
about our performances today

damn it..........
Something is beginning to grow in this band
kind of an edge
and somehow I can foresee where is this phenomenon is heading to
and it's not just me
well
I won't say it in details
as people said
the most dangerous weapon in this world is your own mouth
so naturally I won't spread any rumors about it

...............just hope all this will be solved
with the band's power and will.

Life's Not Getting Better

Borrow this from chun wai.....................
Hope this is another fascinating stream of stories
as I have almost run out of meaningful books to read......................

The darkest side of me

It's official holiday for all schools today
about the hari raya break
I'm planning on doing something meaningful and useful
part of me earnestly want to play Dot Hack game
and part of me want to prepare for the final examinations
I have to admit
I'm really annoying

Something happen yesterday
that left a strong and burning imprint on my very heart
that left an ache to burn through me from the inside out
You see
It's actually something less complex if it's your point of view
Linda Leong was in our class when we all settled in
and after a moment she called my name
and asked me whether I brought my Composition book
So i dug it out and showed it to her
Never did I thought before that I have done some terrible sin like that
That's unimaginable ...............

Because on the speech "how to encourage youths to exercise more"(something like that)
I wrote"......let me arouse your interests with my wonderful mouth..........."
wow
damn it
Never did I realized that that's something wrong to write in a normal essay
yeah
Linda said whenever she read my composition and sentence making
she'll be always frightened and have to brace herself..........
OMG
that's something regretful
Although I have explained that's not what i meant to write
despite the real meaning which she's reluctant to say out loud
But I can never hide from the truth
I'm really contaminated from the inside out.
what a bad idea to write those words
although I never meant like that
and what a bad idea nobody understands me.

I wonder what do those words mean???
"......let me arouse your interests with my wonderful mouth..........."

If I can just bear it
If I just knew the meanings hidden
..............
Damn it

"Touch My Hand"

Saw you from a distance
Saw you from the stage
Something about the look in your eyes
Something about your beautiful face

In a sea of people
There is only you
I never knew what the song was about
But suddenly now I do

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do, it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do, it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
A wonder wall of stars
But the one that's shining out so bright
Is the one right where you are

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do, it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do, it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something about the look in your eyes
Something about your beautiful face

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do, it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do, it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again
(Reach out to you, touch my hand)

I'll never get the chance again
(Reach out as far as you can)
I'll never get the chance again
(Only me, only you and the band)
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand, yeah

Epitaph Of Twilight

In the midst Of everything

I the Chosen One

Precious the heritage of The World's Oldest Artifact

Another Legendary poem

that's almost shrouded in eternal darkness

Yet I the savior

Unleash this blinding work of Art

Of Magic

Of complex perspective

Marvelling along the search

for the Twilight Beast

That's said to roam the very end of The World

Let there be light upon the Chosen One

To succeed In the quest of Impossibility..........

Yet to return, the shadowed one.

Who quests for the Twilight Dragon

Rumbles the Dark Hearth,

And Helba, Queen of the Dark^[2],

has raised finally her army.

Apeiron, King of Light^[2] beckons.

At the base of the rainbow do they meet

Against the abominable Wave,

together they fight.

Alba's lake boils.

Light's great tree doth fall.

Power- now all to droplets turned

in the temple of Arche Koeln.

Returns to nothing,

this world of shadowless ones.

Never to return, the shadowed one,

Who quests for the Twilight Dragon.

Dot Hack G.U.

Azure Kite, Azure Flame God

Corbenik, The Rebirth

Fidchell, The Prophet

Gorre, The Machinator

Macha, The Temptress

Magus, The Propagation

Tarvos, The Avenger

Innis, The Mirage Of Deceit

Skeith, The Terror Of Death

你开玩笑？？！！

今天"强哥"公布了礼堂座位新排法。。。
就是要跟着编号坐，方便点名。。。。。
LOL
虽然是为了不会出现"漏网之鱼"
但也很麻烦下的。。。。

昨天，9月14号是许美欣的生日
是看了facebook才知道的。。。。。。
所以和我们这一gang的人设计好
本来要玩弄郭子承的。。。。。。。。
结果到了KH节。。。。。。

我：er,......美欣，昨天是你的生日hor??
欣: ermn, 是。
我：我。。。。。。。。。。
欣：什么事？
（这是全部人都期待的看着我。。。。。我是说男生）
我：我想代替邝益辉祝你有个幸福，美满， 又快乐的生日。。。。。
欣：哈哈哈哈。。。。。。。。
我：哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
全部人：哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
邝：（无话可说）

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

很炸到叻？？？？？？？
哈哈

其实今天也很显的/。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
很想睡觉。。。。。。。。。。。。

Breaking Dawn

Today while I'm playing facebook
then came the turning point of something that had been in the dark
JAU NI phone me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's quite a shock
when I heard her voice
my heart stopped beating for one second
and recovered almost instantly
as she had spoken to me almost too soon
So the long wait was over
the voice that I haven't heard for so long
too long to be patient and bearable
but that's not of my concern already....................

We spoke for a long time
she asked me everything
she asked me about all of us...........
at least she haven't forget us
but then again
How can she?......................
maybe it's too painful.........

she said she could not prepare well for her SPM trial
BECAUSE OF ME..............
hey man
you still haven't lost us, you know
we're all still willing to welcome you
you must know that the band haven't abandon you
So i beg you
don't close up yourself although I know you must evade us
to recuperate and when we meet again someday
there's still the same old Jau Ni lorr....................

she said she want to go out with me someday
and with the band, too..................
I'm so happy
happy that everything's solved at once
happy that she hasn't lost herself
happy that she will know that everything's not her fault
she need not to worry now la
just study hard for the SPM
and we'll be happy, too.

It's certainly the breaking dawn
what a significance.......................haiz
Hope everything will be fine soon
We cannot stop hoping..........

作为失败者。。。。。

今天用母语来打字
最近没什么特别的事发生，然而
却发生了很多事
让我又要重新回顾一下我的人生
经历了那么多事
我赫然发现
我其实根本就没珍惜自己所拥有的一切
这个人生原则让我欲哭无泪
我发现我因为如此而失去了好多，好多的友谊
我发现自己始终是个失败者
一直以来，
我很相信“不劳而获“这个概念
因为一切都很顺利
不知死亡为何物的我
很想痛打自己一顿。

今天去band
去yellow corner 吃午餐
不小心语言触犯美葵
让她对我的印象继续糟糕。。。
walao
因此我就如梦中醒来
我扪心自问
其实我的人生不就是一片失败吗？

我不懂得珍惜
只想要别人顺着自己
我其实很自私，很愚昧
经历了那么多
失去了那么多
突然
我好想哭。
我好想挽回失去的一切
但我只能无能为力。
我是个无助的失败者。。哈哈

但是我始终相信
陪着我走我的人生的并非无人
我还有他们.
我觉得我应该替自己增值
。。。。。。。。

我真失败。
昭霓
我今天今夜有点思念你。。。。。
aizzzzz

Damn it All

Today's the second day I have my short- cut hair "showcased"
feeling more like a noober with the days that passed by
damn it!!!!!!!!!!
I swore this would be the last haircut this year, no matter what...........
It's destructing my image.........which is self- destruct in some sense
damn it..............but I don't actually think I have any image at all
I'm hopeless.

Anyway...........life still drag on
but I've finally completed reading Breaking Dawn.......
sure as they said, the ending is not just fabulous
It's fascinating.........Wow.

Right now
I'm just randomly searching for my goals and motivation
something that trigger my innermost sense
haha.............actually,
that's just simply stupid and ridiculous.

Discover this marvelous song..........
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXtVBJDPs6k

you'll be sure marvelling at it..........

School Patriotic Celebrations

Those are the photos of SMJK Yu Hua merdeka celebration (morning session), 4th of August as for the afternoon session have not been published yet...........................

Passe

Today is just another time- wasting- and- sucking day
yeah
just get back part of the exam papers.Wow
I would rather call my results as sucks.............yeah
Although that wasn't my fault (I know you're thinking I'm probably lying)
but I never ever foresee my results as that ..............
Unsatisfactory.Woh.Damn it.
Wong yoon ping results were better, though.
but of course, cheating on the field sure do him good.
Now that he's so jubilant that I'm the burning man there>
but turning perspective, I'm actually not all that fussed up.
guess I'm just overreacting................Hahahaha.
Stupid me.Always.
Wonder what's the turnout of my result...........

But anyway I'm just as free and floaty , maybe more, I don't know, compared to the mood
when I'm recuperating during the school holidays.
But certainly 1 week is good enough for me and now everybody (maybe half of them, the same word- I don't know) is worked up and ready to rumble for the final showdown later October
Or it's just me being paranoid?
Surely in my personal damn- it philosophy, I don't think any of the things I thought and listed
above is necessary for my being worried
Actually I'm quite happy about all that school- thing
Yeah
I'm just making a fuss of myself.

Need to see some psycho doc soon enough.
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Anyway tomorrow sure will cheer me up......gt the PJ period......
always in my anticipation as I like to flex my joints and cartilages........
It's pretty cool............Hmm

And Friday is our school's merdeka celebration
gt a tons of performances lining up
sure will get some nice pics if I could
but probably not.Heh