At the End of The Line (?)

Still sulking with my books.

OhShit Ohshit somebody's time is running out

REAL FAST

and what is HE doing here TYPING a blog casually?

Omg Omg Omg Omg Omg

I know this doesn't sound like me

not even half of it

but this is quite a critical year for me as i have made my goals clear

in order to strike that jackpot which i have alwayz dreamt of

I know what should I do

how should I put my best foot forward on

what it takes to do that.....

But the problem is

I'm slacking and procrastinating, as usual

what had happen to my determination?

my willpower?

my dream and all my hopes?

I hate to say that but I do really sucks sometimes

especially right in the middle of something potentially significant

what can i do now? with less than 12 hours to go,

the piles of books never seemed to shrink 

I know this kind of exam would be nothing in almost everybody's eyes

but I know my all- day sleeping and playing and slacking attitude

has gotta be taking its toll on me.

Sometimes I need positive fuel and it came at the exact moment

but unfortunately it wont come nowadays 

or i would rather say, NOW.....

Damnit.... such bad luck.

I guess capable of or incapable of,

I would just have to do it.

Uncertainty

It's been a while that i had been here....

haiz everyday so sienzzzzz....

And that stupid exam...... tomorrow!!

exam exam pls go away 

I prayed and prayed that these 2 weeks will soon be over

and hor

I realized nowadays that 

I can't take my eyes off her

and i can't stop thinking about her

LOL.... she's so cool and .... 

Dunno why when I meet her or want say Hi 

I will feel PAISEH ><

and when i mention that 

I'm saying that I never really have this feeling before

especially towards girls......

because all those girls that i adore

are more lik siblings .......

and everyday after school 

I will wait for her to say goodbye.....
....haha... i'm so stupid..

Is It the rush of adrenaline?

or is it her wave of charisma that hit me?

Or ..........

Is it that feeling?

Crushed..... Crush

Twisting and shifting and ricocheting

the course of life that laid before me

so tempting and yet funny

to be seen in my hollow eyes

I vow to fly 

shattering the boundaries that hold me tight

and die away with all my might

with all the brilliancy and sighs

that left no one but me to cry

all paths joined

and yet i havn't grasp the light

because it's too blinding?

because it's too mesmerizing?

or is it too hard to decipher the tides of time?

Life In A cOLLaPs1nG m0D3...... 

the glass of water that came clashing down

the torrents or rain that spluttered and shattered everything

the urban structures that shook and succumbed...

the tears that dropped.....

Eventually Life for me is nothing but these

But once i saw something

so beautiful and holy that i feared i cant breathe

I blocked that light that hurt my eyes

and saw an angelic figure

so familiar a sight that i cant do anything but hide.

But once i knew who you are,

I wont stop thinking of you

not because i cannot

but because i can never, ever stop that

for you bring hope and wonder to my life.

What if I say I Love You?

Or would i say

Can I Love You?

Is this just another crush?

or will it last for all eternity?

The Toughest Girl In The World

Two things happened today.

All related to ...... death.

Firstly,

Band went out to sg chua cuz someone pretty famous 

has gone....

Our condolences in the form of a song

Our wishes in the form of  a team

Our blessings in the form of a family.

Yes, please rest in peace.

Then.....

when i was sorting out the snare drum

yik fei them came up to tell me that

she has gone.

Stunned lik never before,

that snare drum in my hands almost rolled down the stairs.

I stared.

and stared.

the seconds ticked by but still 

that was the truth....

I don't know how the class took this in,

but i heard a whole lot of my friends cried.

Most of us stayed for the afternoon.

then we went to the ceremony location to give our best condolences.

Many people went there..... and the clouds seemed to hesitate,

the drifting slowed its pace... the wind brewing

with a sense of wary and uncertainty.

many hearts broke... but many more stayed strong.

Because we promised to live well for her sake.

We will keep this shining star in our hearts.

We will live on her dream and accomplish her unfinished task.

We will strife the diamond with all our hearts, 

knowing that she will always live well on the other side

and in our hearts.

God will always Bless you,

Lok Shen

the toughest girl in the world.

Life After You - Daughtry

Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you

Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you, yeah

Damn...

Rawwarrrrrr.....

Feeling so uneasy nowadays...

nothing much to write about...

Oh yeah

Exam exam exam

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