Better man

最近过得蛮充实的

虽然具体来说也说不出为什么

这个假期过得很快，快得我现在才发现已经要十二月了

而这个假期我都在干嘛呢?

我正干着一份工   是在Celcom Blue Cube打工的

嗯  真的很幸运我做了这份工

工作环境很不错  老板他们是严了点啦

工作时间也蛮长的   每一天都要去

我现在的问题是很难平衡做工和去乐队的时间

两边走有时真的会喘不过气    而且久了不懂健康会不会搞砸

不过确实也值得的 况且诗意有陪我做工

益辉,美萱和可欣也都在附近做

至少不会寂寞^^

所以其实我应该很感恩的

做了这份工   得到了社会经验  同时发现自己的弱点

说真的我弱点还蛮多的><不过为了薪水

为了想买的东西

我只有加油了  哈哈

这样的日子很快就过去了

再过不久又是新的一年了

我不想中学生涯的最后一次清闲假期就这样浪费了

因为我很多朋友都是在家吃喝玩乐  哈哈

其实我也想那样   不过我觉得是时候转换心态了

尝试新的东西会提升自己:) 还有最近做事也越来越有感觉了

生活也不会那么颓废了   

中四可以说是我最失败的一年   除了成绩很烂

也白白过了那么一年   虽然当中我觉得我成长了

也有很多很棒的回忆^^

最近也想了好多东西

要发觉世界的真理   真的很复杂

我是不是要傻了? ==

一直想些成人才会去想的事情

比如说世界的各种环境问题

还有活着的意义 哈哈哈 ==

最近又看到一个在fb的东西

说: Life is something to do when you're not sleeping

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

很对其实    人生只不过是如此

或许    不去想太多人生真的会比较好过

就像我的很多身边的人  活得安乐

只不过我总觉得这样的日子.....有些缺少了什么

说道做事有了感觉

不过其实还是有很多不足   我的情况呢

是在很劣势的环境下必须成功

这里有一部分是指乐队的事   现在在很努力的想办法带好它

这个很多回忆和我成长的地方  虽然到了目前已经有些东西遗失了

不过我没有选择   我必须坚持

'''不然我只不过是如此而已'''   哈哈我很喜欢这句话

是海贼王里索隆vs熊那里的对白

或许这就是我成长必经之路    

那样想的话   很多负面想法都会没了哈哈

还有  她><

最近几天她电话没钱了    开始坐立不安了==

我是在想念她吗   根本就是吧

星期六她要去台湾了

会想她吧 ><

我的这份情感会长久吗?

现在要说还很难吧

而且又得知了一件事   希望不是真的

我喜欢的她   或我的兄弟    这种选择我觉得我做不了

但我是摩羯座啊

我是李思翰 :)

如果我不对自己有信心   我不坚强

我早都垮了吧

那我就什么都不是  只不过是如此而已

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Starry Night Sky

魔羯座的人平时都酷酷的一丝不苟的样子，大部分时间都面无表情，让你完全猜不透他内心的想法，而且他们也很少说类似“我爱你”之类的甜言蜜语，在他们看来说这种话丢脸死了，所以通常是他心软或者中真的心动的时候，才会对你说这样的话，所以如果他们带着关爱的眼神对你说出“我爱你”的时候就是真的认定你是他后半生的唯一了。不过有时候这些话甚至要你跟他结了婚以后才有机会听到，比如说看到你为他打造的幸福家庭，他好感动，那一刻，他可能就会说出来了

也许你印象中的摩羯是现实且冷酷的，但是你一定没想到，当他们被热烈的感情所征服时，会变得很忘我很痴情，当他们真心倾慕一个人的时候，那份深藏在心底的爱才会迸发出来，而且这种爱会是一发而不可收拾，经久不衰，尤其摩羯们对爱人和家庭有着极强的责任感，他们忠诚的爱逼迫自己要尽快给情人一个温暖且安定的家，这样兼顾面包与理想的爱，的确让人感觉很幸福很窝心!

摩羯座总是一个外表给人冷酷的，而且吵架了，虽然很难哄，而且不是一个道歉就能解决的，即使说了很多好话，我想摩羯爱人都不会给你好脸色看的，但是她的行动却证明已经原谅你了，如果你出现了什么困难，遇到不开心的事情了，摩羯一定会及时的出现在你身边，为你分担解忧的。责任心的作用会原谅的。

这三段是她在聊天时要我读的~~她还问我生日><

嗯不知为何我觉得很准 :) 天下 魔羯都是那样的吗? 

希望不是吧   那我能保留我的那一点特别了

哈哈在这之前  有很多事发生了

不过我选择放在心里就好了

我还真的说出口了 ><我也很佩服自己

不过还是要谢谢你丫<3真的很感谢你....

以后还会继续喜欢你><

现在烦着乐队的事   我天生很懒惰.....我想要改变我这一点

一定可以的:)

Lost Tower

Cried today....to be exact, two streaks of tears streamed down my right cheek just now

I'm in the car, coming home from dinner. Today's my mum's bday

but during that time, I feel that my heart is so painful...so sorry mum, I'll prepare your present by tomorrow morning.

I'm sms-ing with her..then she told me somethings... maybe it's just that I didn't understand it

or she didn't mean it but I interpret it that way anyhow...so I cried silently in the car.

What would happen if dad saw my tears == I can't imagine.

It's too difficult to say, but I really didn't understand some parts...but if that's what she really wants,

I'll go with it...I was home after that, but I don't have any mood to do anything..

I just lie on the bed waiting for her messages...and chatting with Yik Fei...

I asked him about those love love things >< suddenly feel like asking...because he's experienced  XD

Walau you really understand me... you really pro == I didn't tell you anything at all you already know who that girl is...you even said you simply guessed one. == I choose to believe you...bro><

After that her message came, I straight go open my computer..haha~~then find her~

I somehow feel sorry, but I just wanted to understand those parts that're blurry...I still feel pain ><

but after that during the time talking to her, I feel relieved and happy again ><

I think I'm sot sot already.... haha ==! But what can I do, I miss her again....

Hope you get well soon ya...really miss the time when I'm just behind you.

haha I'm talking about the time we're descending down the mountains in Cameron.

I really feel like I can protect you, that time.

I still feel it now =) But right now the happiest thing for me is to accompany you and talk with you.

I'd feel happy just doing that. Maybe I shouldn't expect anything yet....but yik fei said, 

If you really like her, then you'll like her for anything or everything ( I translated from Chinese XD because we're sms-ing with chinese) something like that lar~~~ but I just want her to be happy can already...><

Distance

今天是个特别的日子

一大早起床先发信息给她

对于昨晚真的很在意..

本来她不想理我的~该怎么说~

自己活该吧 >< 不过后来没事了

真的很开心 

也知道了 原来心痛是这种感觉

噢我的天  回来后又信息了她

我觉得自己好像很烦

可是我想念她....又能怎样><

希望她别讨厌我我就很开心了

哈哈

今天去看那些年 果然好看~~~

真的很有意思....看到柯腾说他就是那么幼稚才能一直追沈佳仪

我想起了她...哈哈

心中竟然有种说不出的酸

我在想

如果她有一天不理我了我会怎么办

从出生以来我第一次有这种深深的情感==

她对我来说

真的很不一样...

我能看着她的照片  傻笑好久好久

做什么都在想着她

顺着她

逗她开心我会很兴奋

跟她聊天会很期待

或许我真的喜欢她吧

未来我就真的不知道了

我想她没喜欢我吧...不知道 ><

暧昧是最好的感觉...那些年里有说

也有一句

‘我的世界, 只不过是你的心’

或许我隐隐约约明白那是什么意思吧

Hanabi

单身是我的选择，而我也会一直单身下去，直到遇上那个对的人 =)

原来我一直以来走过的这条路并没有错,

到最近才发现我的过去那一切只是为了某一天

我能和她相遇

我只不过在等待那一天

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Pledge

I met a girl.
I can't tell if she's special.

I can't tell if I have any feelings.

Probably everything will be the same again.

I won't love.
I scare.
Maybe it's too fast.
Maybe I'm scared because I don't have enough bravery.
Maybe she's just another girl.

But what was that feeling in my heart just now?
I certainly feel my heart skipped....

Maybe's it's just temporary? I don't know.

I feel so lost.

Vortex

Just back from the expedition, a super enriching experience =D Get to know more about people around me, get to enjoy the chill and super fresh air(although most of the time I'm freezing and shaking very funnily haha xD), get to enjoy the penthouse life with a group of crazy dudes, get to climb the most awesome mountain ever although stained almost from top to toe by the awesome mud and bleeding here and there, get to descend down the mountain in the rain with ultra cool wind batting on all corners for like 4 hours...and walk another 7kilometers down the hill to where the bus is, get to say thank you to Yan yi dear who help me the most and be by my side, get to say thank you to Xiet Yang and Ben for always cracking the jokes and gay together, and most importantly, Get to know people =) 

Most importantly, I get to know you >< you're nice....I can't describe the feeling..you're sincere, funny, your laugh is mesmerizing, and you're .....beautiful. haha..thank you for helping me and I feel its my pleasure to help you through the mountain walk and going through all the happy and awkward moments...and be just behind you so that I can always hold you when you fall. 

Best Trip ever :) wonderful and awesome memories together...

Feel empty after back from the expedition =( Miss everything there ><
Adrian's super regretting now...haha! but hope there's a next time for such event, I'll certainly go for it.

认识你我觉得好荣幸 

遇见你我好开心^^

Silly God Disco

Hoo~ hell yeah!! It's november already...in a blink of ultra velocity most of Form 4 had went by and it didn't really register in my mind and state of conscience. I mean, life's really vague for the 10 months before and I am not really happy, somehow~I missed my life in the past, but what can I do, it's too much for me to complain, since I had literally achieved what I had set out for this year and became close with some friends to a whole new level. Well, it can't be a bed of roses, I lost fragments of things along the way too. I miss some part of me that I realized I had lost it nowadays... is it bad or blessing in disguise? Most of the things changed dramatically and I had time to think through everything, and it's been annoying being pecked at by involuntary thoughts randomly any time of the day. Through time, people change and while some people walk into your life some will walk out too, and it's mixed feelings as everything is still not clear for where are these all are heading. This is the year of rehab and thinking, through the days I had some principles instilled in me and I hope I can be the person I hope to be =) well, most of my time these days were spent sleeping and listening to The Gazette and setting goals for my band...things are not looking so good for now but I'm trying to steer it towards the better. Oh wait, what did I said 'hell yeah' for already...nevermind, I guess I just needed this personal space and spill things out...I hope I can go well with my revolution and dream programmes, be it personally or organizationally. Right, today was the Chemistry papers, and I fuxked both paper 1 and 2 up literally, thanks to......everything. Yeah. Haha, Im not gonna linger on it, I'll take it as ANOTHER DIP INTO THE DEPTH FOR A MORE DRAMATIC RISE IN REPUTATION. haha, why did I even bother to caps that sentence, I have no idea...anyways, my rep certainly are damaged in all ways and I'm still figuring a way to pull it back, together with everything.

I guess you can't have everything at the same time, huh? Life's damn unfair, hahaha. 

Need for making a change. =D

I like this : The difference between a dream and a goal is a PLAN.  

but the problem is I always feel lazy and falied to plan. that's something I'm trying to change lately. Haha.

Anyway ciaos, 2 more days to go for THE BEGINNING OF BRAND NEW WORLD. Actually that means the end of final exam =D haha, can't wait anymore.

不知不觉,原来等待你已经变成一种习惯.