I Have A Dream [ Acoustic Atmosphere Remix]

Lately I have been dreaming much

especially when I'm napping in the late afternoons

Aikss... can't control.. will always sleep during afternoons

a long period one... almost until dinner time

making me cant done anything...

my life is in ruins already haha

ops I'm getting carried away ad...

this post is about my dreams

when sleeping ...

I will have strange and fascinating dreams

and everytime it's not a happy ending

nor a sad one

juz simple and ...... scary. hahaha

I remembered one from then

arrived at an amusement park unconsciously

the fog was blinding and the whole place 

sounded like a forbidden abandoned wonderland of hell

but the truth is there's nothing scary

while I'm there... I had a true and genuine feeling of 

extreme loneliness

It's as if I'm the last man on eart. or something like that.

then soon I started to have vivid yet vague flashbacks

in between there's something odd and uncomprehensible....

and after that... had flashforwards.... not the future I think... but kind close to it.

and the strage thing is

everytime I wake up

I'll be reminded of it.... and it's strangely related to the issues in my life

and part of the solution is in my dreams.

So, do you still think dreaming is a waste of time and rubbish?

nope, dreaming sure is a part of my strange life.

Amidst reality, many say dreams are escapade for the pain and uncertainty in real life

but to me, it's more like my own prophecy ..... a really , really strange yet fascinating one.

So, do you like dreaming?

Magic in the Air [ Heroes Hearts Remix]

Sometimes

when you are down 

out

lonely

terrified

unsurmountable

moody

...

and when your phone rings

a message blinking 

your heart tells you it's that person

that always knocks at the door of your heart

with her arrival

vanquishing all hollowness and every bit of loneliness

coming all the way to grab your soul

trying to comfort your mind and emotions

keeping your inner monsters and devils in check 

...

you will experience a sudden ecstacy and bliss

as if that's what you're waiting for your whole life

as if that's the purpose you're here

the unpredictable waves of tears and joy hit the shore of your sky

as if it's the last time

as if tomorrow I'm not going to find out

the peculiar touching sensation that tingles your emotion

and suddenly, everything will be alright.

Try looking out

who's knocking at your door?

Because when you know that message blinking with that all too familiar

"Hey Soul Sister" tone in the air

you know everything's possible with boundless eternity.

You will smile and laugh and forget the sorrow

So remember

don't let that person go... you'll regret yourself your whole life.

What is Happiness?

Happiness is when my phone blinks and a blessed smile appears on the composure

you, and me.

About Stupidity and Lacking Self-Conscious

This post is about a girl who I've known for a damn long time

since Primary 2? wadever ~

and by the look of things I bet you can guess I'm not gonna praise her

nor saying how much she means to me as a friend

nor saying how I feel about her

Er yes.. maybe it's about how I feel about her,

but certainly, I bet you're so right....

because bingo !!! I gonna post something kinda like an ultimatum here.

She's a girl next class,

a quite childish and fussy and ..... troublesome girl.

her birthday was yesterday.... 

I'm being too kind and all that to planned and gave a present to her.

Instead of getting a heart-warming, respectful and sweet "Thank you"

how dare you say something like "don't call me 38婆 again " as I was juz joking

and " don't say rude words to YOUR ELDERS"

and " fundamentally, you ( referring me ) are elder but IN MY WAY OF THINKING,

I (referring her) AM ELDER THAN YOU"

normally,

I wont give a damn about this .... I'm not so small - hearted and easily getting mad

but this time, it's a bit too over, especially when it's your birthday 

and I get over all the fuss just to prepare some present for you.

after all the damn trouble, what did I get?

you making fun of me?

First of all, do you know what's respect? or dignity?

kidding or not, I really dont like you saying like that...

It's a reflection of you excessive self- conscious personality 

and a narrow point of view in your perspective

giving people the impression you are lacking the ability to know your place.

and to mess up with people like ME

you are digging your own grave, literally.

So, stop all your crappy nonsense and I dont care if you are my 10- years friend

or 100 or 1000 years friend

someone who dont even know his or her place dont deserve 

me putting you in my conscience and treating you as a true friend

No offence in this post,

just to let you know : Please stop.

Or else you're dead meat.

Pinnacle Of Perfection [ Soul Diva Remix ]

Have been reading a book

which I had borrowed fron you long time ago

title is You hold a piece of me no matter who you are with (cant type chinese)

I like this book la. makes me don't wanna do anything else.

Or I should rather say, I like everything you borrow me.

Everything, no matter books or what

just as simple as that

no explaination no reason

I love everything.

and I'm so glad to have you by my side

Maybe the gap is getting wider whereas I didn't notice it....

but no matter what,

I always seek to accompany you, to heal you where I can,

to share with you, to connect with you.

Heart and Soul

Despite the fact that I'm losing myself every other day

Despite the fact that I always can't recognize myself day by day

Despite the fact that I'm always asking myself who am I?

Who am I? That's my internal struggle I hold for a long time

I'm nobody,

but it's YOU that makes me somebody.

the realization, the enlightenment, the aspiration

everything related to you makes me know how to fight

how to care for others

how to change

how to live.....

Despite the fact I largely fail at most...

What is unbreakable bond?

you said you know 

but do you really see the meaning in between?

it's not something the words can tell

because for me,

that's the pinnacle of perfection , essence of love

devouring the soul of each other, together makes something miraculous.

That's the real meaning behind everything.

you don't have to understand everything

you just have to know that

and I'll always ignore the growing sense of dread and gap-ness

all I ever wanted is to be with you.

The Giants of your Life

I just finished watching FACING THE GIANTS and I'm totally overwhelmed

It's an absolutely splendid and awesome movie

It's quite outdated, but if there's one word to describe it, 

I would say it's UNBELIEVABLE.

I havn't been watching a great movie in a long time ..... Movies now are just for fancy 

not to mention one with great morality and lessons.

Actually before that I've been sleeping straight for almost 12 hours

because I've just fallen sick at the last minute last night ... T^T

so sad aa..... not only that I missed the Spain vs Germany game,

I had not done several things which was important and were due to be finished today.

Sorry for everything..... and my head hurts aa !!! 

It's been like this for all morning.... 

and I totally hate illness because it ruined my life !!

But on the other hand,

there's much more to it than you could've imagine 

If I had not been sick and out of options to do anything other than watching TVs and comp,

how would I finally decided to watch FACING THE GIANTS 

which Carmen and co. had lended me for almost 3 weeks but was beginning

to gather dust on my study desk?

I don't really mean to not watch it, I just got too indulged in my self- proclaimed hecticness

which was really just wasting my time .....

If I had not been sick, how would I know to appreciate your own body especially on importatn occasions?

that will create countless problems and stop your progress in your tracks .....

tomorrows SK wind band's concert and the day after is BB's concert....

If I had been so ill I couldn't go to those concert,

imagine what a loss and waste would that be? I would regret for my entire life like that ....

And about this movie,

it's truly touching and warming....

And it's all about faith and belief here,

it teaches us to not stop believing and give all your best,

no matter what circumstances, 

God will only send rain to those who prepare their fields.

And, 

whether you are a Christian or not,

There's nothing impossible in God.

Unknown Quantity [ Midland Void Remix ]

Slight procrastinating and laziness

and boredom and sleepiness and dullness 

everything mixed together 

the very essence of this time of my life

the short phase of something odd

sudden realization and truth hit me

This is now where I'm lying

in a place called "nowhere"

and seeing up high in the sky

occasional and temporary specks of lights flashed by

the lights that signify the second coming

the arrival of hope and ambition

that fuse to become

what I call TOMORROW.

It's passe, yeah .... you told me so.

Seemed like I had managed to gt over it.

now here comes the hardest part

where the decision and choice I make

are capable of distorting and altering

the somehow nice and ordinary future.

A bit of an apocalyptic sense ricocheting off my crust of the soul....

Unknown ....... Is it so?

Aza Aza Fighting !! [ En Route Eutopia Remix ]

Life is Short 

make the most out of everything whenever you can

Whatever you do, Juz have faith

Like she said,

"I will always have faith !

Aza aza fighting !! "

hahaha ...... I won't let you down d la.

This is me and being ur successor means I won't disgrace your name :)

Lol so many people cry today,

So sad la ..... :( and That Brenda and Carmen !!

heng !!! 

haha, but in the end I will miss them damn~~~~~~~~ much

T^T cant believe cant see you guys in band anymore ....haizzzz

But I guess I can be optimistic

I love you guys so much,

thx for everytime when I'm sad,

when I'm moody, broken and messy,

I know I will always can rely on you.

LOL anyhow gambateh in the future lerh !!! T.T

Lastly,

today I understood everything at once

well, not technically everything but 

after today

the doubts and uncertainty that blindfolded me

no longer exist ..... suddenly I can see the sunshine again.

It's so refreshing, and I'm glad everything comes to this ending.

This is juz another starting point for everything, where we start again as one,

and then plumetted in a speed greater than centrifugal force

towards the tomorrow we all hoped for .... 

Let's build another glorious era !!!

Dark Apostle [ Oblivion Entourage Remix ]

Despite all the hype and passe

despite all the forced efforts and emotion

there's still something that wont change no matter what

maybe before long,

she's already stated that : THIS WAS THE TRUTH

nothing can be changed about it.

or so everything goes.

But is it?

Can I distort the truth?

Or is it the pathway of destiny is long decided

and laid out before me even I dreaded it

despicably and reluctantly

I donno whether I have the strength and faith to face it.

Everything's sliding into the super massive black hole

eventually the lights will be swallowed up and all I can see is nothing.

Maybe fate has its bloody plan for me

but somehow I really doubt I could do it

the crucial years lay ahead, being all alone physically

Will it eat up on my soul? 

Will I end up being someone totally worn out and lifeless?

expressionless?

emotionless?

That's

The End Of the World .........