三本

我选择了爱情，她选择了友情。

差别只在于：我是在演戏，而她是来真的。

我能演多久？得爱且爱，认了吧？

多么希望    对你而言    我不知是朋友

多么明白    对我而言    妳不只是爱情

能不能够    我们之间    不只是朋友？

 只剩一个月生命的上班族，

饱受霸凌的高中女生，

想再剪一次头发的黑道`老大，

用旅行埋葬秘密的医生，

为了女神展开逆向穿越的孤男，

一个晚上的因果齿轮，

牵动着无数人的命运。

站在因果的分水岭上，

那孩子会知道，

渴望着一场普通人生的自己，

即将变得一点也不普通了吗？

爱人不难，难的是不爱

不爱，也是一种爱

所以，我才会感慨

我们，只能不爱以爱

尽管，爱情，给我们一次机会。

[给我爱，却又不肯被爱。]

闭上眼睛，她这么说。

没有主词的一句话，却说给了主词听。

人在什么情形下会发现自己爱上对方？

当思考起这个问题时。这是我的答案。

A Christmas For Three [Midnight Medley Remix]

These are the recent happenings, high and low, happy and slow, everything~

This is on wednesday 22 december, we're exchanging with 2 bands

When hoei tzin and choki is pakto, man shing come interfere

At night we slept overnight at Hokkien association....

All in front of da mirror....but you gotta look at jialing's expression when she saw I'm curi curi taking her pic XD

 Dinner at 99 food court.....rainy day, so breezy and emo and breathtaking~

After taking PMR result, some friends accompanied me to metro point. We played bowling~

 This very blur O.o

 Actually after that we went singing karaoke, but I didnt took any picha~

at the book store on the ground floor of metro point. wad a heaven tat is XD

Then on the 24th I remembered I slept until it was a hot afternoon, and I dizzily woke up, staggering as the the stuffs in my room got a crashing and banging pitifully ....

Voila~ finally it's Christmas~ But It's only 3 people....=.=  That day we went to 2 places, but initially we underestimated the crowd that would be building up to a gigantic sea...we failed to board the first KTM to Midvalley and wasted the RM2.60 so I decided to went back to that book store at metro and bought some books. That'll be in the next post~  after that off we went to Times Square.

At 'Shabu Shabu'? or something sounding like that ....I literally forgot the name already.hahaha

 The Steamboat tasted..like Chinese New Year? lol...but it's nice anyway.

Haha....I lost to a first timer....again =.= haha siew hong next time play better u gt the potential XD

Second game okok la~

 Actually we're trying to find nice bags.... we saw the bags we wanted at Times square, the shop beside Converse shop, but the price is a bit too.... 'nice'. So we went to Midvalley to take a better look at the offers there.

NIce deco

 tis is so sohai =.= 

 hello kitty~

 domo kun

 LOL

 White Christmas~~~

 Live choir....nice carolling~

The middle d very lenglui o XD

So.....that's how I spent my day. In the end, I din buy any bag, I just hope next week I can get this settled ...

For You

It's coming to the end, and while you can see other people busy gearing up for the time after the end or pretending to be busy just to fill up their hollowness, I just stand there and wait, waiting for the end to come.
Sometimes when you let yourself engulfed in a blank state of mind, you learn something in the process. I don't mean I'm idle throughout the whole of two months, but I try to, learn to use a different perspective to see things.
yes, I'm still searching for 'that' unique thing, 'that' thing I've always been wanting... and after every end arrives the beginning, with an open heart I step up to everything so not only that I have the strength to endure, but I can grow mentally and psychologically. That's the purpose I've found in life, the main purpose. In any other way, I'm just the usual guy going about my own business. 


This week I'm following the band for an exchange with Kepong and a Johor band is joining. Gonna sleep overnight to accompany and watch after them.Any other days I'm gonna read finish my novels and stuffs before school reopens and before it's too late. Ohyeah, PMR result day is a Thursday and I've got nothing to say about that. Anything happens, it's just a passing of life and it's not necessarily life-changing or fate-twisting so let's just sit there and ha-ha-ha and then it'll be over. I still cannot understand the excessive and far-fetched drama people are presenting. GodBless you people, anyway ^^  


[Your walls are too high, I try to get over it and I see a light of hope
But I failed to get over it and I figure out this is normal anyway
Is it me getting used to it or is it always been this way?
You say you won't let me worry, but the way it is you gotta say it again
Let me shoulder your doubts and burden so that your heart will open again.
Remember, nobody is alone in this world. 
Things may change but the key is to preserve every moment and laugh until it's over
You never know when everything will end, you never know when I can see you again.
But right now I know, I know we can make it the moment it truly is.
Remember, I may not be the sincerest or nicest, but I'll always be there for you








For You.]

Sometimes Sometimes

When you're not fine when you're tired.... 

You can choose to tell me instead of building up your invisible castle walls  around your heart 

I knew that so well because it's been countless times but maybe I'd get used to you

your brand of personality. Im ok, it's just sometimes I feel that you're further away again.

and I cant do anything but stare and pray in my heart that you're through it.

I know you're strong, everybody knows that, and I know sometimes people do need their own breathing space.

But maybe it's just me, maybe it's just my mindset problem but I kinda feel like 

I wont get used to this state of loneliness anytime, not now, not forever. I just feel so.

we've through so much, we've known each other too well, it's not like this is your fault or anybody's 

but I just cant deal well with it. I dont know what words to use to describe my feeling, it's odd; it's special.

You're too special, it's different and mind-blowing, and I dont know what to do besides staring at you. 

Maybe, just maybe, if I could see that other side of you, I would know the answer to my doubt and uneasiness. 

But in the end, I will still like you just the way you are now. Lovesss and Blessess

曾经拥有是一种安慰吗？知道了失去的痛，就宁愿选择不要拥有？很多时候，人生就像爱情，宁愿爱错也不要错过;很多时候，爱错了才知道拥有过的幸福;没经历过，又怎知道你是对还是错？这个世界很多东西并不是永恒的，现实也许残酷，一切都将改变，但若不是如此你又怎能遇见我？我又怎能遇见你？我知道你够坚强也够脆弱，所以我要你知道，有你真好，失去的终究是已失去，留下来的却是无比珍贵的东西。
有些东西到了某个时间就已不再，而有些东西不管到何时都会在心里面，就像我心中时时刻刻都有你，纵然你不会感觉到。




                                                                                                    给我亲爱的你  




                                                             

Little Planets

Today is Tuesday, 2.45am.

Recently I got a feeling that I've lost track of time. let me rephrase it. I mean I have trouble of recalling back  things that happen in a certain day. Like, I thought that day I texted you was Sunday but it turns out to be a Saturday night. Yeah, my memory...... Sighs. Speaking of which, it's been a long time since we really chatted with each other. Wait, it should be it's a long time around since I've ever really, really chatted with anybody.  .......

I cant deny it feels good to be in your company...and thanks for trying hard to read that 700 pages book and I do really hope you like the story. I've got more books waiting for you =D Anyway, I ran out of phone credit for two days already, I wonder if I should head down to town tomorrow? I mean today...a couple of hours more...I need to reload, I need to unwind, and I need to go somewhere, alone. or maybe I should go somewhere further?

It's December, which leads me to only one thing:

Christmas is near. The End is near. And so does the Beginning.   wait, that's three things already. Or just one?

One or three? .....

Why I Have to Scream

It's been a while...

Well, mostly these days the feeling is pouring back again. the hollowness there is fading away...

It's always so true how I'm just used to being away from the hype and noise for no reason

that feeling is lonely, cold but yet reassuring... at least that was my perception back in those days.

The night street best reflects me, the flashing neon maroon and deep mauve complete the picture of my heart.

The imperfections of the dark here and there, just fill in the holes of my broken world.

but whenever I thought that was the last time I'm going to be in the crowd again, I was always wrong.

So fcking wrong. I never realized the wonderful things around me, I just dont know how to appreciate.

So now, it's pouring back again.... as memories dance about in my head. 

The wrong-being and uneasiness is slowly lifted as I chose to believe, chose to dive in.

Chose to walk on the path that's always been there in my heart. 

and I realized something recently.... I love my juniors more le ^^

maybe this is sooooo yucks, but it's true. I love to be with them for no reason. 

and be with everyone else, those who I care. No matter how hard it rain, the rainbow's always there 

when it's over. Classic quote, yeah? 

well, it's especially true now.

I gotta thank God Im fortunate and blessed, not in any conflicting problems that crushes one's soul.

[Simplicity do really make a difference

maybe I dont really snap out of the habit

But at least I know why I'm fighting

why I'm screaming

so I'm trying, trying to break the habit]