Sometimes Sometimes

When you're not fine when you're tired.... 

You can choose to tell me instead of building up your invisible castle walls  around your heart 

I knew that so well because it's been countless times but maybe I'd get used to you

your brand of personality. Im ok, it's just sometimes I feel that you're further away again.

and I cant do anything but stare and pray in my heart that you're through it.

I know you're strong, everybody knows that, and I know sometimes people do need their own breathing space.

But maybe it's just me, maybe it's just my mindset problem but I kinda feel like 

I wont get used to this state of loneliness anytime, not now, not forever. I just feel so.

we've through so much, we've known each other too well, it's not like this is your fault or anybody's 

but I just cant deal well with it. I dont know what words to use to describe my feeling, it's odd; it's special.

You're too special, it's different and mind-blowing, and I dont know what to do besides staring at you. 

Maybe, just maybe, if I could see that other side of you, I would know the answer to my doubt and uneasiness. 

But in the end, I will still like you just the way you are now. Lovesss and Blessess