Burial Applicant

刚刚早上其实是吓醒的

妹妹已经跟小瓜们去吉隆波了
他们是为明天乐队的欢送会准备
这次我把欢送会交给小瓜们处理了
是时候让他们也成长了
虽然我有时觉得自己很弱
这里是指处理事情方面
话说星期六在槟城   晚上发生了很多事
这里就不多说了
只能说很感谢在危机时刻还有很多人帮手
那晚   其实该说是转机吧？
让小瓜们把他们觉得我本身的问题都说了出来
原来这段期间带领乐队   出了好多问题    
我本身觉得     我有在这假期做出成绩
只是过程和做决定的方式错了    
原来啊
再纠结过去的事物是没用了
我上位都快半年了
时间真的快不够了
只能全力以扑了    朋友们     为我祈祷吧
希望能把缺点改掉
我这个人最讨厌的就是留下遗憾   


我真的不想错过


说回早上吓醒
其实我算是做了个噩梦吧
我梦见了自己被送到一个岛屿上了
那里是不允许离开的     岛上的人是危险的
我依稀有印象    当我被送到岛屿过后     我先前的羁绊
一切回忆和曾经存在过的痕迹    
都消失不见了  
那时   我想起了好朋友们      
想到往后我就不在他们的记忆中了     连存在过的痕迹都不留
和他们的每个时刻     每个相处的片断    
都好像打从一开始就没存在过


想到都快崩溃了
然后我就醒来了
天空没有颜色     听到手机有信息的铃声
却依然躺在床上    可能心有余悸吧    
这一切是那么的真实     你想想看
当你知道你自己的存在只不过是谎言     
你会有什么感受？     


这个梦的意义     我并没有搞到很清楚
只不过我发现到     现实生活中      是变幻无穷的
下一秒发生的事     没有人知道       
不想自己的人生那么快被遗忘
虽然打从一开始人类已注定是短暂的一个转瞬即逝


差别只在于    
你想不想在这短暂的转瞬即逝
改变这个世界

DECEMBER ALREADY MAN!!
This december is one of my fullest month =) By fullest I mean that everything I do is meaningful and all the hard works finally paid off ~there's nothing happier than achieving your goal. I'm nt gonna elaborate on everything, if you wanna know what I'd been doing just check out my Facebook, hahaha. Anyway it's one of the times that I truly feel alive, and by alive I mean I am really grateful for everything, everybody around me and live life to the fullest everyday. By some point in november I was really emo and moody, and I felt that life really sucked. Literally. and I felt that my life was going down....but then everything changed and I was glad for it. 

So, don't look down on yourself, a human has infinite possibilities, if you truly believe in yourself, and add up your hard work and determination, you'll see the wonderful gifts of life. It's been a long time that I had struggled. 2011 was not a good year for me. I thought that everything was over. But then I'm Sze Han. I wouldn't go down so easily. I have a bunch of truly caring friends and sometimes I almost cried because I realized I still have so many good friends who are willing to share my sorrow and share my burden. From now on, I'll never be looking back, I'll try to cherish my life and everything around me. Thanks everybody for being by my side all those days, I can't find words to describe my gratitude for you =)





Anyway, Sze Han will rock on again =D I hope so ><