INTUITION

Somehow. Someday. Im gonna repay all the debts in my own way, trying my best to express the gratitude to those who have helped me before. Although I can't say Im perfect now, but I do feel stronger in heart...although sometimes I of course, will have doubts. about friendship. about future. about those that are important. We are human afterall. But somehow I will continue to hold on....there's no reason for me to back off, and Im glad I won't find excuses and reasons to run away from things anymore :D Hell, everytime I think of the things I screwed up before, the remorse and regret will flood over me , overwhelm me, as it is obvious to me now that I have the ability to solve them... it is just that my heart was not right before.

Im still trying the very best to appreciate things. well, let's see things/people that make me happy recently:

1 Band AGM..and the presents X))
2 Tan Pei Qin ^O^
3 My gang/friends...spending time with them makes me forget sorrow and realize life is not meaningless
4 The Dark Knight Rises ..This movie ROCKSSSS TOTALLY FTW!! love Christopher Nolan...the human brain is infinitely marvelous. The scenes of INCEPTION are still fresh in mind even now.
5 B.A.P and CNBlue: everybody knows that Im not kpop fan but some of the bands are awesome :)
6 The Gazette DIVISION album: ohyea babe finally a new album! but unfortunately no full songs available for download yet.... :(
7 playing basketball: BASKETBALL IS ABOUT SOUL, its not only a sport XD
8 improvement in piano. lets say that Im still unsatisfied with my skills and all those...but next wednesday is piano exam, have to try my best><
9 Seeing those precious and friends around you happy, gives me the most happiness =D

LIFE. You are not born to please somebody else. Just be yourself =D I love this quote so much...but for me personally, if those are the people I cherish, to do something to make them happy...whatever I do is worth it, even though after some time it will maybe be forgotten or it's just temporary. But Im really happy, just because they are happy simply, even if its just simple things... I dont know it is good or not X)

But, just because I feel things the way it is now, doesnt mean that all the wrong I've done is forgivable. I used to ignore tiny little things which could had made a huge difference, I used to go back on my promise which I super regret it even now, I used to hurt those people who had always supported me..... and even though you stay in the band, I know how you really feel.... so sorry that I can't really help.. Of course, I wish for you to stay in band, dearly, because I acknowledge your ability and you have been really helpful, and about the Tshirt things....Im still damn regret now. On the other hand, I know you want to have your own time....do you know? you are one of the few people I admire truly...not because of your achievements but your personality... maybe you didnt realize it, but to think differently and do things with such unique way, those are the things that I can learn. I really have thought you wont stay, but apparently they didnt give you a choice...so sorry I cant help you in this, and all I can say for now is that all the best in whatever you are doing....and really sorry for all the trouble I've caused. Just, stay true and ganbattee :) I'll be here always