Funfair of Hope

This world is dark

and it's so hard to breathe

but in this instant

when I laugh along with you

I felt that breathing just got a little more easier

behind me

the merry-go-round had started up again for the thousandth time

and that made me think

bad and tough things happened

but at the end of the day

life was only another ride and

like it or not

I'd been give a ticket

so what else could I do but hang on and enjoy it 

and save the tears for when it was time to get off?

Afterthought on a breezy night

It's the end of 2009

the Christmas was over and maybe

it's time for me to think this through

about what happened and how did I crossed the line

first of all 

I found that my holidays were quite contented

thanks to band 

and I cannot improve on anything at all......

and something happened 

that made me came to this conclusion:

GIRLS ARE HARD TO UNDERSTAND

and yet I consulted some close friends

and I hope all those people I care for won't be hard to understand.LOL

and through thick and thin

I felt that I have grown

being able to think further and hopefully

be more mature

but there's still one thing that won't ever change

my dream and objectives probably lies in the darkness

I will continue to venture through everything

with all my might

because I realized that I'm not alone afterall

TRUE FRIENDS WILL SUPPORT AND GIVE YOU HOPE

ALTHOUGH SOMETIMES WE HOPE AGAINST HOPE

BUT IN THE END WE STILL SEE THE SUNSET

AND WE LAUGH AND CHATTER HAPPILY INTO THE DISTANCE.

THAT'S WHAT TRUE FRIENDS ARE FOR ME.

Happy early New Year to all my friends

and let's venture through yet another glorious year!

Treasure It

Unexpected Christmas gift from Brenda

will use as 2010 year planning book and band memo book

Love it so much , especially the key chain

thanks and love you~

Christmas At Kuei's House

Lunch At Gasoline

On the way

 

Carmen and Jau Ni

 

Bao Yun and Ka Ean

 

Shi Huan and Karen

 

Brenda and Carmen

 

Yong Weng Kheng became AKUA

 

funny BBQ

 

..............

 

3 of them

 

 and this.........muahahahahaha

LOOEUNICE!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!

Sin

I really wish everything is the same as a long time ago

when I can always laugh and smile with you

without any trouble

but now I'm lost

I don't get what you really want

Everyday

I would search for your existance

but everytime you ignore me

my heart will break over and over and over again

until my senses are numb

then I will become really heartless.

why can't me and you be ordinary friends?

If that's the case everybody won't be hurt

I don't want to ignore your existance purposefully

but everytime I see you

your gaze told me to stay away

And so I don't know what can I do now.

I don't want to avoid you at all

it's just that I felt that you don't want to be by my side anymore

like I'm the pathetic glass which you'll see through

and so the colours of my heart are fading away.

The Truth I Refuse To Believe

If there is something I really want to know

I really want to know what have I done wrong

I'm imperfect and annoying which everyone knew

and till today I realize something that in the past I would never believe

who knows my heart would become so fragile?

I'm totally dazed

This is the one thing I would never believe no matter how

because through rain and pain

the only thing that keep me pushing on is my heart

Since when my heart is bound to be broken?

Tonight my heart aches but partly my own damn fault

nobody to be blamed and 

I REALLY DON'T LIKE THE PERSON I AM NOW.

please,

who can save me from my agony?

Aftermath

Can't upload those photos of penang trip here

my connection sucks

Damn it

if anyone is interested just click on my facebook or other band members

but as a conclusion

this trip was amazing

I learnt many things about band skills and harmony

and after that night, 

this trip changes my view of life

and thinking about new year 

I suddenly have a new aim

To Jau Ni

I have hurt you 

and I don't want anything like that to repeat

because deep in my heart

I cannot lose this friend

for your future years

may God bless you 

and may your dreams come true

To Brenda Choo and Loo Carmen

since I joined this band

got to know the two of you was awesome

and walking through my first two years in secondary school with you

seeing you smile and sampat

I just know my life won't be the same without the two of you

and maybe 2010 is the last year I am by your side

and you will continue to pursue your dreams then

I hope you won't forget me^^

To Bao Yun

since knowing you

I know you're special

you sacrifice your everything to perfect our band

our "One Band One Dream" slogan

though venturing through much unfortunate events

without you

there won't be a band like this

a band which we all care for each other and go through everything together

as a whole

as one

and I hope we will fly further

with this unbreakable bond

until the very end of everything.

Nostalgic Piece of Memory

Happy Birthday To You

It's the last time we celebrate birthday with you in our secondary life

I couldn't be by your side anymore in fact

not that you care.LOL

Got to know you is one of my toughest venture

I went through everything to believe in everything

to save everything before all hell break lose

not that you care.LOL

So this will be the one last piece of memory left

the memory of you, me and him.

[I won't lose it again]

This is my last plans of this busy holiday

after the penang trip which i will post about later

this holiday is almost over and i learnt countless important things about life

23 Dec

Practise for the band exchange with foon yew high school

24 Dec

band exchange

25 Dec

Christmas celebration

26 Dec

resume normal practise and SK concert

26 Dec onwards

Preparing for new year planning and performance

[Spirits Lived]

To all whom I Believe In

It's do or die now.

It's now or never.

It's almost time I must make it right

It's almost time I cannot accept failure.

It's time we should not hesitate

It's time we unleash the hidden beast and make it to the level

we should cross the border

It's just in front of our very eyes yet it seems like it's a lightyear away

all we have to do is to believe.

To believe in all those which we always believe in

to put a little more faith.

Let's move as a whole

and make it happens.

Miracles will not happen easily yet we should never stop believing

what does it take to believe in all those things we believe in all along?

Yes, it's your heart.

[I would accept your sorrow
and I would share my joy
if you strayed, I would reprimand you
And when you found yourself in trouble,
I would be there for you.
Despite you learned to hate this world
I would want you to love it once more.

You do not act saint,
That's why I love you.]

[let's go to penang and no matter what happens, we're still one]

Guilt So Great Yet I Never Believe It

I'm feeling that my presence in this band is beginning to overwhelm myself

nowadays just feeling more and more hopeless

I'm feeling pretty guilty

for causing so much trouble yet I can never make it right

those three are all so exhausted

yet I never compromise

I'm feeling very very guilty.

Please

can someone guide me to the shrine

or do I have to do it alone?

I know I'm pathetic and annoying

so I hope things don't get worse anymore

I can't take it

neither do them.

Apologize for a second time, 

SORRY.

hope all go well when we head for penang.

God bless us.

Maybe I'm really just dreaming

Found this consoling album

and if you're interested go search for " fireflies" this song

it's quite mesmerizing and tranquiling

it's lyrics plummet into my inner soul

reflecting me as the person i am

the greyish and saddening emo tempo

just suits my taste well

this song is just a mirror image of a person 

like me.

the lyrics:

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Light up the world as i fell asleep
Cause they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But i wouuld just stand and stare
I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

Cause i'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sockhop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread
I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems
When i fall asleep
Leave my door open just a crack
Please take me away from here
Cause i feel like such an insomniac

Please take me away from here
Why do i tire of counting sheep
Please take me away from here
When i'm far too tired to fall asleep
To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cause i hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But i'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizzare
Cause i saved a few and i keep them in a jar
I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems
When i fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems
When i fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

Busy week ahead

Have a busy week ahead......there's the camp 

and then we'll head for penang this friday

hope all goes well cuz those bands we're dealing with are no kidding

heard they're pretty good

omg i don't want to let my band down...

and i wanna say is streamyx u suck!!

the internet seemed slower and slower everyday 

goddamn it==

i hate this country's government.

I want to discover it

always lacking something crucial which i always know all along

deep inside my heart core where i can sense this peculiar feeling

yet i can never grasp it

never ever

i may be glorious on the outside

but i'm nothing on the inside

i always fail to meet expectations

which the reason i will never discover

i always want to achiever something

yet i never will do it

so please tell me 

what am i lacking?

to awaken the sleeping beast inside me

to form everlasting willpower

to always sleep peacefully every single night

to get rid of that full- of - guilty feeling

to be the lulaby everyone will never reject

to be more expectant and aware

so what is it?

the flame i saw faintly and quirky 

from the moment i was born until now

which i knew will never dies.

Hillsong

Today band not quite in condition

running nose ==

so cannot perform my best

so sorry huang yu

i promise there won't be a second time.

and i found out that i like hillsongs

XD

what an odd thing for non- christians

but i just like it

for no particular reason.

[I like everything precious]

What's so Important in your life

What's so important anyway when you have them watching your steps and warning you of the danger ahead, What's so important anyway when you have them as your comfort sofa and chime in lulaby into your ears every single night..........so what's so important anyway? THEY will always guide you to your very own shrine, making you the happiest being alive.

Let's Sing the Melodies of Christmas~

I love this festive mood soooooooooo much~

I guess you'll be wondering why

yeah it's December dude!!

December means cherish this atmosphere

means laughing non- stop with friends

means shopping with all the money we save the whole year

means exchange of words of hope and wonder

means carol of hope shrouding the entire city

means friends are all we need as well as family!!!!!!

yeah you're so right 

Christmas' around the corner man~~

soon it'll be new year

so let's appreciate all of these while we still can

Cheers!!!!!

P.S. happy birthday to SHAWN my junior~

Times Square Edmund's Birthday

Today went to Times Square to celebrate Edmund's birthday

haha

happy birthday ~

Pei Qin, Siew Hong , Qai Jiang, Weng Kheng, Carmen and Eunice went together with us

along with some of his form 4 friends

Had lunch at Gasoline ...........

and went shopping with Edmund

Bought this Adidas bag , my third bag of the year~

 

and then gone home ad......haha

the photos will be uploaded when i get those photos later '

and P.S. carmen , I don't forget your birthday intentionally

I've just suffered temporarily memory loss....haha~

anyway I promise your birthday next year will not be dull

unless i forget it ~~haha

Facebook

Here's something regarding Mei Chian's facebook account
I heard that it's hacked so
all her friends pls add her at

mei_chian@live.com 

or go this link

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/profile.php?id=100000547992095&ref=ts

Preparing for the band exchange

Nothing special nowadays if you're curious

just practise band thrice a week

and found myself improve a bit
quite happy cuz i'm really pathetic

gambated myself because we're going to penang soon

still undecided whether i'm supposed to go to SK concert

and go celebrate Edmund's birthday

well.

that's all i wanna say.

[We're always all in this together]

Avatar Official Movie Review 2009

In the epic action adventure fantasy "Avatar", James Cameron, the director of "Titanic", takes us to a spectacular new world beyond our imagination. On the distant moon Pandora, a reluctant hero embarks on a journey of redemption, discovery and unexpected love - as he leads a heroic battle to save a civilization.

The story’s protagonist, Jake Sully, is an ex-Marine who was wounded and paralyzed from the waist down in combat on Earth. In order to participate in the Avatar program, which will give him a healthy body, Jake agrees to travel to Pandora, a lush rainforest environment filled with incredible life forms – some beautiful, many terrifying. Pandora is also the home to the Na’vi, a humanoid race that lives at what we consider to be a primate level, but they are actually much more evolved than humans. Ten feet tall and blue skinned, the Na’vi live harmoniously within their unspoiled world. But as humans encroach on Pandora in search of valuable minerals, the Na’vi’s very existence is threatened – and their warrior abilities unleashed.

Jake has unwittingly been recruited to become part of this encroachment. Since humans are unable to breathe the air on Pandora, they have created genetically-bred human-Na’vi hybrids known as Avatars. The Avatars are living, breathing bodies in the real world, controlled by a human driver through a technology that links the driver’s mind to the Avatar body. On Pandora, through his Avatar body, Jake can be whole once again. Moreover, he falls in love with a young Na’vi woman, Neytiri, whose beauty is matched by her ferocity in battle.

As Jake slides deeper into becoming one of her clan, he finds himself caught between the military-industrial forces of Earth, and the Na’vi – forcing him to choose sides in an epic battle that will decide the fate of an entire world.

Conceived 14 years ago and over four years in the making, "Avatar" breaks new ground in delivering a fully immersive, emotional story and reinvents the moviegoing experience.

 COMING THIS FALL 18 DECEMBER..........MOVIE TRAILER ON http://www.avatarmovie.com/

Call Of Duty : Modern Warfare 2 - Plot

Modern Warfare 2 is set five years after the conclusion of Call of Duty 4. Despite the efforts of the MarinesSAS, the Ultranationalists seize control of Russia and declare Imran Zakhaev a hero and martyr, erecting a statue of him in the heart of Red Square. Meanwhile, Vladimir Makarov, one of Zakhaev's former lieutenants, begins a campaign against Europe by committing numerous acts of terrorism.^[31] and the 

The game begins in Afghanistan, where US Army Ranger Private First Class Joseph Allen helps take an Afghan city from an army of militants. Impressed by his performance, General Shepherd recruits Allen into the CIA for an undercover operation. Meanwhile, two other members of the task force, Captain "Soap" MacTavish and Sergeant Gary "Roach" Sanderson infiltrate an airbase in Kazakhstan to recover a lost ACS module from a downed satellite. Shepherd then sends Allen on an undercover mission for the CIA in Russia in order to get close to Makarov. Allen, under the alias "Alexei Borodin," joins Makarov in a brutal massacre of unarmed civilians waiting in a terminal at fictional Zakhaev International Airport in Moscow. Makarov, however, is aware of Allen's true identity and ensures that he and the other terrorists speak only in English during the attack. Before leaving, he kills Allen and exposes his identity as an American, so that the Russian police will believe he is responsible for the attack.^[31]

^{More Details can be found on Wikipedia.}

Please Do Not Post Any Comment- Namewee latest video

What I'm going to post now may violate any principles and may be unsuitable for a particular group of viewers

So I'm warning you

If you feel unconfortable about it ( if you run this link)

please don't share any comment in this blog

instead you should e- mail me directly of call me personally to express those feelings of yours

This is Namewee latest video about the sucking TNB of malaysia............

Please beware and enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAHQGvFqcSE

P.S.  Details about CALL OF DUTY should be posted next post.

Call Of Duty : Modern Warfare 2 - Intro

Modern Warfare 2 features a cooperative mode entitled Special Ops, which consists of independent missions similar in design to the "Mile High Club" epilogue mission from Call of Duty 4.^[20Most of the Special Ops missions may be played alone, but support two player cooperative play,^[14] in which two players can play together locally or online.^[21] Such mode includes scenarios such as a snowmobile race between the two players, one player providing air support from an AC-130 with the other player conducting operations on the ground, capturing an enemy compound, and searching areas for and eliminating 40 or more enemies at a time.^[11]

Special Ops is divided into five separate groups of missions: Alpha, Bravo, Charlie, Delta, and Echo. Each mission may be played at three difficulty levels: regular, hardened, or veteran. Successfully completing a mission earns the players stars; there are up to three stars available for each mission: one star for completing the mission on regular difficulty, two for hardened, and three for veteran. Once enough stars are earned, more missions can be unlocked.^[21] There are a total of 23 missions, and 69 stars available for unlock. At the end of each mission, a statistics screen displays how long the player(s) took in order to complete the level and how many kills were scored, among other data.

 

 For more Details will be posted on the next post^^ stay tuned.

New Design

Change Layout again .............ahahahahahhaha

this is idea I get from online tutorial

I think this is much more better in many ways compared to the ones before

more stylish, Avant Garde...................hmm

Anyway hope you all like it!!

Finally

Finally get what I want for so long

but the screen is a bit too small in case you noticed it

aizz

is laptop nowadays like this??

But finally I have it

what a great relief!!!