Sin

I really wish everything is the same as a long time ago

when I can always laugh and smile with you

without any trouble

but now I'm lost

I don't get what you really want

Everyday

I would search for your existance

but everytime you ignore me

my heart will break over and over and over again

until my senses are numb

then I will become really heartless.

why can't me and you be ordinary friends?

If that's the case everybody won't be hurt

I don't want to ignore your existance purposefully

but everytime I see you

your gaze told me to stay away

And so I don't know what can I do now.

I don't want to avoid you at all

it's just that I felt that you don't want to be by my side anymore

like I'm the pathetic glass which you'll see through

and so the colours of my heart are fading away.