Empty Skies

Have been indulged in mixed thoughts lately..

cant put my mind off some things...

as I said, everything's in a countdown motion..

that applies to my life too...

maybe to you everything seems normal

I may be the same egoistic, carefree and sleep- addict guy u alwaz knw

But deep down something change drastically 

I cant keep track of myself, or I cant keep myself in check

Everytime when I'm sleeping in class...

I sink into oblivion... ignoring the torrents of chatter and laughter

Like I'm being thrown into another world

I feel cold, helpless and lonely there... there I try to pry open the chains of memories

but to no avail. literally.

I always know I have to forget and forgive someone even if he/she has done something 

you think unforgivable.

It's a sign of acknowledgement and sign of true friendship.

Well, I havn't really grasp that.... so there will still be misunderstandings,

confusion, and uncertainty... 

The key to an unbreakable bond is trust and belief.

so they say.

But to me, I found these two like a lie or hoax.

I may have been better compared to my old self, but still

The dilemma and conflicting soul in my body cant let go of me.

I need to really understand that , if not now, someday.

That's the day when I will achieve true friendship.

and how far is that day? I guess nobody knows that....

There's always some things that will awaken someone and change his/her life

forever..... always