Never-Ending

Wait, I thought I got lots to say just now...where'd they all gone now?

Well, I took up Twitter like one month ago, well, not so sure why bother to register

maybe just curious. Or maybe bren is there :) and carmen kuei them too.Lols

I think I just followed a few people there.... partly because Im enjoying the new feeling of socializing.

Or maybe I don't wanna make it like Facebook... you know, it's a big messy world there.

Or maybe there ain't a social life out there, for me, at all. wadever. anyway it's not so different.

Finally finish reading Vampire Diaries, oh yea. haha =.=. you know how long was it since I got it from carmen?

You don't wanna know, trust me. It's pretty amazing how I can procrastinate something to that degree, or level,

however you wanna call it. But now the right mood is on, well I guess it's me to my book-loving self.

Yes, I thrive in books, it's my very first love since the dawn of ages. 

There's no ending to my liking for that LinkinPark song, which's on the playlist now.

Cant stop listening. Just cant. 

Nothing Special

Ok, I admit the last post is just a total crap... what is really in my heart I shall post it here...

Life's like this, when something is not at the right place and right time, the most glamorous diamond won't shine too, you know. We encounter people, things, thoughts, inspiration, dreams, nightmare, and belief everyday.

There are people who hate you. Those who love you. Those who protect you. And those who will be with you.

There are things and thoughts that make you rise, make you smile, make you grow up...  There are inspiration everywhere, amongst dreams and nightmares, that make up the core of your belief. You believe what you have faith in. But you can't believe blindly just to go with the flow or please someone. You have to be yourself, whether people hate you or love you. There's a saying like this: Say what you want and be who you are, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. These were the things in my head lately, making me think. You know, Im bad at expressing myself through words or language. Or emotion. Sometimes everything is just a poker face, fake and meaningless. But I don't make a poker face, I just keep everything in check, hoping that Im still the same person. But nothing is ever the same. I grow my belief, and I believe in what I truly believe. Ever since those years, everybody carries on and so do I... We change. Well, conclusively this post is just a splatter of mixed feelings and ideas. I try to jot those down so that one day I can still look back and discover the me as I am now. I hope this part of my memories won't die, the most fascinating and grueling part of all. 

And have you ever try listening to one song and can't stop clicking the replay button? well, I really like that feeling, I get to experience the soul and meaning of it and seek inspiration from it. Try doing this, and I know most of you did this before, and maybe you'll make a certain discovery. This is another part of me that I won't allow to die. 

Brick By Boring Brick

What the, I cant believe this was the third time already I accidentally deleted all the stuff Im gonna post here.

It's hard work writing all those things out of my mind as it is continuously dying... Fine I'll just get over it.

Anyway, what Im gonna say in the deleted post was how the recent exams are gonna end but it just seem like my sis is already in holiday mood. Yea, I can't believe she can use my laptop like it's her own from morning until almost dinner time... watching Gossip Girls. It's supposed to be me who's doing all those things, right? I mean, it's my holiday time already and if Im not gonna enjoy it as much as I can now then by the time holiday arrives there may be no time and mood already. yeap, this is typical, ordinary me in holiday mode. Unlike some of my friends, they're facing their turning-point-of-secondary school life-exam in November, I just sincerely wish they're healthy, sharp, happy, and no more. It's the best remedy to overcome the worst of nightmare and the best of living hell, don't you agree? Bless you all~

I like this song___

Brick By Boring Brick Lyrics_Paramore

She lives in a fairy tale

Somewhere too far for us to find

Forgotten the taste and smell

Of the world that she's left behind

It's all about the exposure the lens I told her

The angles were all wrong now

She's ripping wings off of butterflies

keep your feet on the ground

when your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel

And we'll dig a deep hole

To bury the castle, bury the castle

Well go get your shovel

And we'll dig a deep hole

To bury the castle, bury the castle

Ba da ba ba da ba ba da

So one day he found her crying

Coiled up on the dirty ground

Her prince finally came to save her

And the rest you can figure out

But it was a trick

And the clock struck twelve

Well make sure to build your home brick by boring brick

or the wolf's gonna blow it down

keep your feet on the ground

when your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel

And we'll dig a deep hole

To bury the castle, bury the castle

Well you built up a world of magic

Because your real life is tragic

Yeah you built up a world of magic

If it's not real

You can't hold it in your hand

You can't feel it with your heart

And I won't believe it

But if it's true

You can see it with your eyes

Oh even in the dark

And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel

We'll dig a deep hole

To bury the castle, bury the castle

Well go get your shovel

and we'll dig a deep hole

To bury the castle, bury the castle

Guys x2:

ba da ba ba da ba ba da......

Hayley x2:

ba da ba ba da ba ba da.....

No Regrets, yea

Life, what is it? is it a dog? or a fish? or a candy-nation? or a freaking forest in the middle of nowhere?

Now what Im crapping about? the truth is, I just couldn't find better ways to start off this post 

the mornings and nights are a lot more tiring, with the chances of me dozing off or naping in the sofa 

rocketed up to unimaginable heights.... It's so empty man, what it means to be a pathetic loser?

Somehow, it's very troubling, but I've been struggling a lot more nowadays, mostly over : what is more important?

Days after PMR blah blah is freaking boring, come on now, couldn't it be any worse? 

I know I know, I have lots of works to do, but the ignition point juz disappeared itself, without a trace.

no thrust, thus no distance; no distance, hell Im dead.... 

Temporary emotion disorder or what? get out of this body! I'll get back soon, anyways

Meanwhile, friends are starting to take up tuitions on Form4 subjects. Seriously?

Preparing the Umbrella before a storm.... good choice, but somehow my instincts told me this is sick.

Who I am to say? well, I am nobody to say this, I just pray you good lucks and don't get self-destructed

by the so-high-and-mighty Form4 subjects.... I mean, the pressure. Unwind, guys! 

Still going school, you know, play sports. Well, a simple sport can certainly teach you lotsa things,

if you get what I mean. Seeing things clearer can be hurting but rewarding... a new perspective of my life

I just got to say Hi to it, so sweet ! I know I suck, I know, but problem isnt anything, just be a part of the solution. These days the ghost of my past is getting back to bite at me, but you know what,

Looking to the bright-o-Shiny tomorrow is certainly better than sobing over past mistakes and so on...

I have a life, my own life, and with resolution to be always better is now my new philosophy.

Enjoy life guys, whether you like it or not, cuz life is just another ride, Love it or loathe it, you hop on and scream and got off smiling or crying, with no regrets.

Something Bout Faith 2nd part: now this explains my partial doubts but also threw me off

Now, the class continues...

(As the student was about the sit down, while the Professor slumped in his chair, another student got up ...)

Meursault: Whoa... wait just a second. I have something to say.

Student: I've just finished bashing the Professor and it's nearly lunch time, what more you have to say?

Meursault: Earlier, you said that cold is the absence of heat.

Student: Yeah, so?

Meursault: But before that you said there is no such thing as cold. So are you saying there is no such thing as the absence of heat?

Student: Wha-?

Meursault: You also said darkness is the absence of light and you said you cannot make darkness darker. Buf if you permit less light to enter a room, aren't you increasing the absence of light? If you're increasing the absence of light, aren't you increasing darkness? Therefore, aren't you making darkness darker?

Student: Well...

Meursault: You see, cold or hot, bright or dark, are just conventions people use to describe a situation. It's like asking someone "How old are you?" instead of asking "How much of the absence of youth have you endured?"

(The classroom breaks into laughter)

Meursault: Your word play carries no meaning at all.

Student: Yeah? What about good and evil?

Meursault: Again, good and evil are just conventions. If immorality is the absence of morality, you can just as correctly say that morality is the absence of immorality. Does that mean there is no such thing as morality?

Student: It's ridiculous to say that there is no morality!

Meursault: Exactly! Similarly, if evil is the absence of good, then good can also be defined as the absence of evil. Does it mean that there is no such thing as good?

Student: No way!

Meursault: So, just because you've accepted one convention, doesn't mean the opposite convention is wrong.

Student: But look at what's happening around us! Murders, rape, and stealing all because of the absence of God's moral code.

Meursault: Morality doesn't come from God. Some religious people have committed murders in the name of God. Just look at the events of 9/11. Likewise, non-religious people have also committed murders, but it is wrong to assume that without God, all humans are immoral.

Student: And why not? We're all sinners aren't we?

Meursault: We, humans, have an innate moral sense. In fact, even animals, such as chimps display moral ethics, though not as sophisticated as what we humans are capable of. We are all social creatures and we have arrived at a moral consensus that is widely agreed upon and continuously evolving.

Student: It is evolving?

Meursault: Yes! The moral zeitgeist evolves. During Jesus' time, slavery was acceptable and women were accorded a lower status, but today, things are different. Similarly, racism is no longer acceptable in many parts of the world, today.

Student: Speaking of evolution, even the Professor has never observed it with his own eyes. Have you?

Meursault: I haven't, but we know now that evolution is observable. Various studies on bacteria and fruit fly have documented the slow, evolutionary change within a single species.

Student: But evolution is just a theory. It's not proven.

Meursault: Gravity is just a theory too. Relativity? Also a theory because no one can move at the speed of light. The atom? Just a theory, no one has ever seen it. Yet, based on insurmountable evidence, these theories are accepted with a high degree of certainty. Evolution too is supported by overwhelming evidence such as mutation, vestigial organs, embryology, fossil evidence, morphology and DNA evidence.

Student: How does this relate to God?

Meursault: Well, evolution does not prove that God doesn't exist, but it certainly redefines the role of a 'god' in this world. We now know that we don't need God to create new species, evolution by natural selection can take care of that. We also need to rethink our concept of Creation.

Student: Aren't there people who believe in evolution but also believe in God?

Meursault: Yes there are and I'm still learning about that. But you realise that this discussion is far from over?

Student: Yeah I suppose you're right. It is something to think about.

Meursault: Yup, that's why we're all here in university. We're here to learn! PROFESSOR!!!

(The Professor jumped out of his chair, surprised. He seemed to have dozed off during the later part of the discussion.)

Prof: Yes?

Meursault: I feel, we must question your ability to teach this class.

Prof (stuttering) : But... but... I... got my degree and doctorate from Universiti Malaya! It's the most prestigious university in Malaysia! It's even ranked in the top 100 universities in the world!

Meursault: Sorry Professor, but in 2006, University Malaya was ranked 192 in the THES World Rankings. The standard there has been gradually dropping for the past decade. And from the earlier discussion, you don't seem very knowledgeable and don't strike us as much of a thinker.

Prof (sounding dejected) : I... I.... oh alright. You caught me. I'm really not an atheist. I just like to bully people. I'm not even a real professor. I only passed my degree because I cheated on my exams. I downloaded my doctoral thesis and passed it up as my own. The university awarded me a PhD for inadequate work... who was I to refuse? The government is over-zealous in handing out advanced degrees to make up the numbers, so I just take-lah! I am sorrie.... I will resign and let someone else take over this class.

(And with that, everyone left for lunch...)

THE END

Something Bout Faith

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem Science has with God, The Almighty.

He asks one of his new students to stand and.....
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Shaitan good?
Student: No.
Prof: Where does Shaitan come from?
Student: From...God.. .
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness?
All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you.
Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God?
Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat.
But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat,
But we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold.
Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....
But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't.
If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality.
You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God.
You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.
Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.
Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?
No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable. )
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir... The link between Man & God is FAITH.
That is all that keeps things moving & alive...

Moving On [ Waiting For the End Remix]

Actually I already typed a super-long post on tuesday night

but you know, Blogger went wrong and my post just disappeared without a trace

since then I had difficulties retype anything yet

procrastination? maybe the effects of the aftermath of PMR is still not over yet

But you know, everybody needs to get down to earth soon... there's more to be done.

Ok so what am I doing here now? of course I'm typing a new post =.= yea I knw, I'm lame

Well, 2 days without going school and sleep-until-the-sun-is-in-the-middle-of-the-sky is NOT that good

I'm just abandoning my duties and all that, so well, I decided I need a new aim.

A new resolve to begin life from now on.

Whether in the past I had provoke you or hurt you, I'm sincerely sorry, but I have to

you know, look forward too. The sky is still too far within my reach, so I might as well try to fly

If I'm planning to get stuck here like, forever, then maybe this is the end of everything already.

So instead, I decided to move on.

A new hope to work on.

A new dawn to arrive.

Hope everybody moving on, too =)

I know you will.

Here's a little song I wanna share

Linkinpark's new song"Waiting For the End" included in the new album"A Thousand Suns"

I really like this song.... it feels close to me

This is not the end 

This is not the beginning, 

Just a voice like a riot 

Rocking every revision 

But you listen to the tone 

And the violet rhythm 

Though the words sound steady 

Something empty's within 'em 

We say Yeah! 

With fists flying up in the air 

Like we're holding onto something 

Thats invisible there, 

Cuz we're living at the mercy of 

The pain and the fear 

Until we dead it, Forget it, 

Let it all dissapear. 

Waiting for the end to come 

Wishing I had strength to stand 

This is not what I had planned 

It's out of my control.... 

Flying at the speed of light 

Thoughts we're spinning in my head 

So many things were left unsaid 

It's hard to let you go... 

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, 

I know how it feels to lie, 

All I wanna do 

Is trade this life for something new 

Holding on to what I haven't got 

Sitting in an empty room 

Trying to forget the past 

This was never meant to last, 

I wish it wasn't so... 

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, 

I know how it feels to lie, 

All I wanna do 

Is trade this life for something new 

Holding on to what I haven't got 

What was left when that fire was gone? 

I thought it felt right but that right was wrong 

All caught up in the eye of the storm 

And trying to figure out what it's like moving on 

And i don't even know what kind of things I've said 

My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead 

So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin? 

The hardest part of ending Is starting again!! 

All I wanna do 

Is trade this life for something new 

Holding on to what i haven't got... 

This is not the end 

This is not the beginning, 

Just a voice like a riot 

Rocking every revision 

But you listen to the tone 

And the violet rhythm 

Though the words sound steady 

Something empty's within 'em 

(Holding on to what i haven't got) 

We say Yeah! 

With fists flying up in the air 

Like we're holding onto something 

Thats invisible there, 

Coz we're living at the mercy of 

The pain and th fear 

Until we dead it, Forget it, 

Let it all dissapear 

(Holding on to what i haven't got!)